Autism Acceptance Month – Day 8 – Out as Au...

– Are you out as autistic? –

Almost everyone in my life knows that I am Autistic. I am not shy about telling them. Now that I have the words to better explain myself and my issues to people, I make no effort to hide who I am. If someone is like “Why are you doing that?”, I can be like “Because I am Autistic!” and then give the exact reasoning for whatever I am doing.

– How have people reacted? –

Most of my friends were perfectly okay with my actions after I explained that I was Autistic to them and how my traits came into play. Some were confused and had very outdated stereotypes of what autism was, so they tried to assure me that I wasn’t. So I explained it better to them, which then changed their whole attitude about autism and gave them a better understanding of both it and me. The majority of my friends are very supportive of my Autistic advocacy efforts.

My family has reacted very positively, as they knew I wasn’t a normal kid by any means. I was pretty weird and had a whole host of issues, but they still loved me and accepted me. Now they know why I had the issues that I had when I was younger and still do. They are very supportive of my Autistic advocacy efforts as well.

– Do they treat you differently after they found out? –

So far none of my friends and family have treated me any differently. I explained that learning that I am Autistic didn’t change who I was at all. It gave me the words to explain my life to others. I am still the same weird girl I have always been.

On the other hand, many doctors and other medical professionals treat me differently now. I get treated like I am stupid by them and they talk to my husband instead of me, which pisses me off. Besides that, no one has treated me any differently.

-Do you attempt to pass as NT? –

I used to attempt to pass as NT (Neurotypical) when I was younger. Though I didn’t know I was doing it at the time; I mostly thought to myself “don’t be weird in public”. Now that I know I am Autistic, I don’t care if people see me stimming or such in public areas. Sometimes I need to stim to help regulate any sensory issues or keep track of where my body is in space. On top of that, I want to help normalize Autistic body movements so that we aren’t ridiculed for them. So yea, I am going to keep on stimming in public when I need to.

– If you do try to pass have you experienced autistic burnout from trying to pass? –

I did hit autistic burnout from trying to pass for far too long, which was compounded with other issues. I hit burnout very hard and lost many coping skills I once had to pass as NT. I am still going through burnout, but I am learning how to work through it. I am having to relearn a lot of coping skills, but this time I am learning them the Autistic way, which has been much better for me.

Autism Acceptance Month – Day 7 – “I&...

Today’s post is about when I discovered that I was Autistic. It was just over 2 years ago. I figured out that I was around April 21st, 2015, I believe.

My journey of self discovery actually started in 2010. I had thought I might be Autistic (back then I was thinking Aspergers, as I didn’t understand that there was not a difference between the two –  but that is a post for a later time). I was not finding information about females with Aspergers back then. It just wasn’t really a thing talked about online. After a while, I gave up my search. Later in 2010 I pegged my best friend as having Aspergers; since he was male, it was easier to find information and he also had a lot in common with another friend of mine who was diagnosed.

In 2013 I hit autistic burnout really hard. I had been in an emotionally abusive relationship and it took its toll on me. I lost many coping skills I once had and I had no idea why I was having so many issues. My now-husband helped me through that though, he is the one who kept pointing out things which in turn helped me form an idea of what to look up online. Then, in 2015, I finally started researching things again. Suddenly, after finding some good resources and the Autistic community at large, my life started to make sense. I finally understood myself a whole hell of a lot better. And I had the words to explain why I had the issues I was having.

Since I figured out that I was Autistic, I haven’t stopped researching and learning more. I also love reading stuff written by other Autistics through which I can discover new things, even those I didn’t realize were autism things. Now I write posts here to help others like me and to help educate the world about autism.

I am glad to have finally found my people and my community. I no longer feel alone, like an outsider in a vast and frightening world.

Autism Acceptance Month – Day 6 – Creativit...

I have heard people say that Autistics aren’t creative and have no imaginations, all because we don’t play the “typical” way. Well, let me tell you: I had a great imagination as a kid. I also loved doing art and other crafty stuff. My great grandma would watch my brother and I during the summers and we would always go to the craft store to figure out new projects to work on. I love art and being creative, and always will.

I have been posting my art online for years. What kinds of art or crafts I have been doing has changed over time. I used to post some of my drawings on my original deviantart account; I also made plushies back then (though they weren’t that good). I tried though, and I enjoyed it. I eventually moved on to my newer deviantart account where I posted custom MLP figures I painted/re-haired and the MLP enamel pins I designed.

Now, over a decade later, I run an online shop for  items such as weighted plushies, stimmy toys, hand sewn doll clothing, and tie dyed human clothing. And I am launching a line of enamel pins for the Autistic and disabled communities. I also dye most of my fabrics myself. Dying/tie-dying has been a special interest of mine since I was young. With my shop I get to combine so many special interests into one big endeavor and I enjoy it immensely. I love that I can share my work with others and make them happy too.

I have mentioned in other blog posts I also run a convention. That simply requires me to be creative. I work together with the core staff to figure out the convention’s theme every year and together we come up with an ongoing story and artwork that fits the theme. I also do all the layout and design for our convention’s program guide, which I maybe enjoy way too much!

I enjoy being creative and coming up with fun ideas and projects! So anyone who tells you that an Autistic person can’t be creative is spouting 100% Grade A bullshit.